jap party
Mood of the day: Alright
Action of the moment: Crapping w eugene on msn n msging kw (in short: slacking)

Heh tired! Just came back from the thank you party at nagami sensei's house. Cant say the turnout was that good cos only 28 pple were there out of the whole jap4 batch of 82. But overall it was pretty much an enjoyable experience lar. Had my first time making sushi n onigiri. But hor no matter how hard i tried its so hard to get the perfect triangular shape..doushite?? Heh den crapped with kayee, yashi, jacelin, qinghai, lijuan, rachel, jaron they all there lor. Kayee n me din do much but were like getting tired even b4 the thing started. Lol. N the condo was surprisingly big even though it looks lok kok from the exterior. Not bad not bad..heh.

Kayee san, our cheezels n chicken biscuits...=(

Hmm what shld i blog about today? My life like getting boring leh. Oh today somebody asked me a question that i think i have not heard for quite some time. It was a question that was put to me at an amazing frequency some time back but then everything has already quietened down le lar. Nah i dun miss the question that much but its just that its been so long since the last time i heard it that now it sounds abit weird. Makes me think that actually alot of things change without me noticing it. Hmm, oh well. I cant turn back time, neither do i want to cry over spilt milk. Lets just say that i learnt to step back n focus on more important things.

Frankly, its really an amazing world out there.

I know, sometimes in life u feel that the world has been unfair to u. Everyone else out there seems to be enjoying while u go thru all these bumps in ur life. But who is to say that they are really enjoying? Everyone has their own skeletons in their closets, lurking out there somewhere waiting to be uncovered one day. Its more of how u view them, aint it.

At the end of the day, its how u think that counts.

또 울어버렸다.. @ 10:03 PM

joon ki
Mood of the day: Happy when i see joon ki, alright otherwise
Action of the moment: Youtube time again

Heh yup my entry in the dae was pretty hurried cos i was rushing for tuition just now so since i have the time now i decided to write another lor. N yes the topic still revolves around joon ki. Heh. My newest addition to my pretty boi list. Lol. I think if pple who dunno me well reads this they will probably think im either a maniac or a paedophile. Heh who cares. I admit, i m rarely a content ger. In fact i find it a pretty hard task to be satisfied sometimes cos i will just hunger for more. Well, that is normal human behaviour so i dun see anything wrong with it. But the point is that i do feel truly happy when im engrossed in something i love. N for the first 17 yrs of my life, there wasnt anything that i could term as an obsession. It was only after korea came along that for the first time in my life i felt that there was nothing that could be compared to it. Heh of cos now there is another love in my life. Which is dance! =) Heh but ya korea is very much a part of my life n i think it will still be for a long time to come..i love it so much more den japan k. Even koike teppei failed to revive my passion in jap. Tsk tsk..

But all it takes is a commercial n a mv to make me fall head over heels with joon ki. Haha.. Hw come korea can churn out so many eye candies u tell me..its like they manufacture cute guys over there like nobody's business lydat lor. Im like almost a fan of more den half the guy population over there. Lol. Not to mention h.o.t, shinhwa n fly to the sky..the peeps who started this whole avalanche..n i have never looked back since. Heh..

*lets out a contented sigh*

This hols im so so going to learn korean once n for all..aja aja!

또 울어버렸다.. @ 10:59 PM

heh playing
Mood of the day: Content
Action of the moment: Psychoing eugene to do a blog n watching My Girl (plus drooling over Joon ki)

Heh joon ki is so adorable in My Girl i cant imagine seeing him in King n the Clown!! haha..My bf must think im mad again..now i think she wun like joon ki le. Seriously i think i have a super velvety soft spot for pretty bois. Lol. By that i mean their looks hor n it doesnt extend to their actions n voice thankew. I like pretty bois but not ladies' bois. Big huge gigantic diff k..grr.

Ok abit busy now so yup tts about it. The morale of today's entry is well basically telling people that joon ki is cute! HAha. Ya thats about it..tata..

또 울어버렸다.. @ 2:04 PM

Exhausted
Mood of the day: Conscious but drowsy
Action of the moment: Enjoying the taste of freedom once again..

Lol the 'conscious but drowsy' sounds super familiar. It came from my pharma notes..the part about the 4 stages in general anaesthetics. Heh. Ok i think everyone dunno throw their notes till where le by this time. Yup, i finally made it thru 3 of my papers!! Seriously im not putting my last paper into consideration cos its still super far away n its my S/u paper lor. My jap4 paper..

Had a pretty weird dream yesterday. Got zhiwan, eugene, juline, some of the pple in my bahasa class n i cant rem who. Heh lazy to rem the dream also. Hiaks my thoughts today are slightly incoherent cos my brain is like totally closed down for repairs. Lol. Exhausted too much neuron cells le.

What was i going to blog about>? I distinctly rem something i was going to blog about. Hmm..neva mind. Ohya zhiwan n ruoyun n me are contemplating whether we shld go for exotic dance during the hols..haha. Fun mah. N no, i absolutely do not have a target in mind to perform it for, thankew. Its for erm personal reference. Lol.

Anyway i just wanna dance lar. Whether dance that may be..(save for line dancing) I think even bollywood dance might be better den line dancing lor. Heh now liu xing wor..n the website even said its not just about dancing around coconut trees..woah that is a totally new concept..haha.

Heh yup my tone is getting light again..cos im in a considerably nice mood today. Who wouldnt be after slogging thru 3 exams?? The thought of putting down ur notes n not havin to cramp them all in ur tiny(in my case) brain is well, absolutely endearing n welcome anytime. Heh..

I wanna ice skate..i wanna dance.. i wanna get a doggy.. i wanna go overseas.. i wanna be rich so i can do the most impt thing of all..i wanna go shopping!! ^_^

Hmm should i rebond or perm my hair? I like having both of them at the same time though. Upper half rebond n lower half perm (the big big curls one) but pretty hard to maintain..n i know im very lazy too..see first ba..

ps/ i wanna watch the king n the clown!! why issit taking super long to come.....grrrrrr

또 울어버렸다.. @ 8:23 AM

stressed
Mood of the day: Stressed!
Action of the moment: Mugging physio (another neverending thing)

Yes for the first time in ages, i finally feel stressed again. Frankly speaking, 'stress' rarely occurs in my everyday dictionary. Nah im not being arrogant or conceited or whatever, its just that i feel that what must be done ought to be done. As the (lousy) saying goes, stressed is just desserts spelt backwards. So ya, what is there to be stressed about? But i know most pple will disagree with me lar. Fine..im just giving my two cents' worth here anyway..

But the main morale of my story is that if u feel that u cant cope, just spend more time and effort on it. Everyone hates studying (ok im ignoring the minority) including me, but everyone including me again still have to do it whether we like it or not. Its not a matter of choice here. Agree? Ok I take it silence means consent.

I loathe the feeling of doing something n not seeing the results. But when the results need the cooperation of other people, i have no choice but to wait. N when i have faith in those people, i do not wish that they will disappoint me n make my confidence in them waver. Its not right. Its just isnt. Enuff said.

Yesterdae's paper was alright i guess. One down, 3 more to go. I cant wait til i can taste freedom again..

I want to go on a holiday....

또 울어버렸다.. @ 9:58 AM

first paper
Mood of the dAy: Saturated
Action of the moment: Reading my tuts n pracs

Ok my brain is like brimming with pharm now. Argh. Just let me vomit everything out later during the paper. *pleasee* Think i shldnt be blogging right now hor. But its still super early. N my head is still kinda drowsy even though i woke up like 45mins ago. Oh ok. I realised i have alreade wasted 45 mins away. Sigh..

Cepat cepat..saya masih harus belajar physio sebelum pergi ke universitas untuk ujian saya!!

또 울어버렸다.. @ 6:47 AM

Still mugging
Mood of the day: Blur
Action of the moment: Still mugging pharma (its a neverending thing)

Hmm actually im waiting for the vid that angel recommended to load. I still wanna watch King and the Clown~ but hor dunno if they will show it in singapore after all. Maybe like a few months later when all the hype has gone down? Lol. Anywae i just sent in this thing for me n juline to sign up for tango n jive during the hols. Yay..hope both of us can get it though cos its like past the application date alreade. *keeps fingers crossed*

Speaking of which, here's wishing shawn gd luck for his gym competition tmr. Heh. Doubt he will see this before that but ya, hope you win something k? ^_^ Den maybe i will get u a tutu to complement the outfit. Lol.

As to lionel, i know DOTA rocks. =p But pls study more b4 playing.. Heh.

Yup im like half in hol mood i tell ya. N i decided to be a good ger n drink 3-4L of water everyday. HEh. Oki back to mugging or else i still need to go catch Burn the Floor this weekends! Too bad im only watching the students show i.e only 55mins instead of the usual 2 hrs show. But financial difficulties la.

Hope i get the job at science centre too..

Ohya angel maybe we shld start looking for courses if we wanna take korean..

또 울어버렸다.. @ 10:00 AM

mugging
Mood of the day: Not expecting anything
Action of the moment: Mugging pharma (what else do u think)

Hmm now its officially hibernation mode once again as i plunge into mugging, mugging n more mugging. Yawnz. How interesting can that be. Sianzzz..just watched another episode of ballroom bootcamp again. Heh. Nice..ohya n it just reminded me that theres So u think u can dance tonight. I skipped the prev 2 episodes cos of the lousy tests..sigh. Heh ya i was talking about ballroom bootcamp. Today's episode was on jive and had 3 male recruits instead of the usual gers. Not really interested in the guys part cos most of the time i dun think they actually make the mark. Heh ok not demeaning lar its just that the guys' lead are just not as interesting as the ger's part. Especially in jive. Its the fastest dance among all 5 ballroom dances. So i was actually quite surprised when one of recruits was this 60 plus old man. But he turned out not bad lar. Though he din win. Not that i wanted him to lar. Lol.

Kk crap too much back to my eternal state of mugging.

또 울어버렸다.. @ 11:49 AM

Finally
Mood of the day: Down in the dumps
Action of the moment: Trying to catch up on what i have been missing out this whole week

Sian!! Hiaks i finally see light again. My last entry was like erm 1o days ago? That was how long i havent been online le. Damn zai right? Lol. DEn my frens keep asking me how i survived without internet for so long. Ya, its possible. In fact, i barely touched the tv as well thru this week. Double zai. Im like super impressed by myself too. Haha.

Cant blame me. This week was like super hectic. Jap n bahasa oral test on tues (yes, i survived thru 2 consecutive oral tests though i cant say for certain i din buang them, cos i think i pretty much did that..dun care), pharma test on thur, n physio assignment due today. N i still went shopping with juline yesterdae. Heh. Its retail therapy u know. Cos yesterday was a pretty lousy day. How shld i sae. To put it more generally, i expected abit way too high but the thing is i wldnt have been so disappointed if the thing was not known beforehand. But i just realised that actually it was alreade known n still it wasnt done. I throw in the towel. Totally. N i guess history does have a higher tendency to repeat itself. Maybe its familial. I dunno. I only know that some things tend to be repeated over n over again, n it never fails to leave an aftertaste of bitterness, slightly tingling in the mouth. Or shld i say, a sense of regret.

Loss of motivation, low self-esteem, indecisiveness, apathy, misery, pessimism --- all emotional signs of depression.

또 울어버렸다.. @ 10:14 AM

swimming pool
Mood of the day: Puzzled
Action of the moment: Watching Swimming Pool

Ok, im puzzled. Why is Swimming Pool so super cheem?? Hiaks. I was reading the reviews about it and there was this like half a page long explaination about the symbolism behind the show. Diao. I realise there are actually alot of films out there depicting the kind of story-within-story kind of plot. Its like the whole show is practically just a figment out of the main character's imagination i.e. whatever happens in the middle of the show are purely imagined n nothing actually occurred in real life. N theres always an overdose of psychological n repressed stuff. Ok i wouldnt recommend the show to pple but ya if u happen to watch it, pls explain to me. Heh.

Ohya i had a wonderful dream yesterday when i took a nap in the afternoon! Lol. In short, i went to this teatime buffet thingy and there were like all sorts of cookies, chocolate, sweets and cakes that u could ever imagined..heh so nice..if only it will come true one day..

N to my di, ya of cos its not real..lol. I erm, prefer ur jiefu to be a guy..=p

Sian, i haven been studying much..i think i should start counting down now cos i urgently need to find back my momentum soon..arrghhh.

또 울어버렸다.. @ 1:07 PM

birthday
Mood of the day: Err slightly irritated
Action of the moment: Trying to fix the stupid dummy idiotic spyware on my comp n reading jap lecture50

Hiaks to be frank, im slightly pissed off by my comp cos the stupid spyware refuses to go away!! Ok its alright if it doesnt affect my comp much but the worst thing is that it prevents me from using internet which is like so *%#@^#&*!!! Sian diao..even my norton, adware, n spybot all doesnt seem to be working lor.. =((((

But on a happier note, its my mum n dad's birthday today. Heh. Yup they were born on the same day just that my mum is one year younger. Anyway i cooked 猪肝面线 for them today. (NB: if u dunno what's that, its pig liver with vermicelli - usually eaten on birthday to signify, i dunno what..longevity?)

Yup, so happie birthday!! ^_^

But today another thing is bugging me actually. Cant think of how to solve it at the moment so im hoping the solution will come to me naturally. Can only say that i will try my best n see how everything goes ba. Yup, sorry i cant divulge what issit though. I will just need more time n effort, n hopefully lotsa luck n trust in me..

N i miss my dancing already..if only i can dance everydae..

또 울어버렸다.. @ 10:08 PM

Dancing
Mood of the day: Slightly uplifted
Action of the moment: Watching dirty dancing2 on vcd

Ehh pls do not mistake dirty dancing2 for erm some sleazy show. Thankew. Im not that kind of person hor. Lol. Its about cuban dance which includes salsa, rumba, mambo etc. Heh so fun..i wonder how many forms of dances are there in total in this world. Cos save for line dancing, i really think i like all the other genres. Sigh..spoilt for choice. =D Tsk tsk..

Heh my di let me play maple SEA for awhile today during tuition. (Oops) Ok i admit, im a maple idiot. I think i can only play Warcraft III n nothing else le. Lol. But ya the graphics are pretty cute. But i dun really like playing online cos i hate interaction with other pple. Very mafan leh.

Hmm hoping that i can get a clip from my fren who recorded down me n the teacher dancing yesterday during salsa class. Heh. Den can see my mistakes mah. Or else how to improve..(although my di says that i zi lian; im not k!) Anyhow say..=p

또 울어버렸다.. @ 4:09 PM

A lone Piscean in this world
11.03.1984
꿈을 잃은 아이
Frigging irrational
Works solely on emotion
Nonchalent about reality
Advocate of Atheism
Not a people's person,
but an animals' person
Only belief - 대한민국

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